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23rd-Jun-2007 12:15 pm - 2007 Read (past tense) List
I did this last year. This is my personal book list, where I write all the books down that I've read over this summer just so I can see the long list. I like seeing the long list. So pretty much this post can be ignored. I include any book and full manga. At the moment there's a lot of manga but I've got a lovely pile of books to read here that are real novel books...

Maximum Ride: School's Out Forever (number II)
Strawberry Marshmellow 1
Oh My Goddess 25
Oh My Goddess 26
Shaman King 10
Shaman King 11
Shaman King 12
Charlie Bone and the Time Twister
The Game* (Howl's Moving Castle author, a quick read and good)
Great and Terrible Beauty* (interesting fiction and also a quickie)
Queen of Babble
Kamichama Karin 4
Kamichama Karin 5
Kamichama Karin 6
Kamichama Karin 7
Charlie Bone 1
The Lake House* (Not as good as Cradle and All but still pretty good ending)
21st-Jun-2007 11:48 pm(no subject)
I'm happy. So happy, you can't believe it. Like i can't stop smiling happy.
21st-Jun-2007 08:22 am(no subject)
polaris
Took two months but it happened. Kicked to the curb of life, more like a rusty gutter actually. This is why Foy builds walls and doesn't like to know people. I don't hear from people anymore, or not that much. Not sure why. I can think of a few reasons and usually they are the same. I shouldn't care but it hurts not to hear from people at all. It just isn't fair.

I don't have a chance at anything anymore. I'm sick of wanting to be optimistic and have hope in everything, but you know what, screw hope. It isn't worth it. I have yet to be proved that it's worth having hope in my life because in all honestly, i don't know what to look ahead for. So far I see only school and that's because I miss people, even if I don't hear from them. But I know as soon as I get there, I'm going to lock myself up probably.
21st-Jun-2007 08:18 am - Under Pressure
bat me
Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure
That burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets

Um ba ba bay
Um ba ba bay
Dee day duh
Ee day duh
thats ok

It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming let me out!
Tomorrow takes me higher
Pressure on people
People on streets

Day day day
da da dup bup bup
Okay

Chippin' around
kick my brains round the floor
These are the days
It never rains but it pours
Ee do bay bup
Ee do bay ba bup
Ee do bup
Bay bup
People on streets
Dee da dee da day
People on streets
Dee da dee da dee da dee da

It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming let me out!
Tomorrow takes me high high higher
Pressure on people
People on streets

Turned away from it all
Like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love
But it's so slashed and torn
Why why why?

(Love, love, love, love)

Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
Can't we give ourselves one more chance?
Why can't we give love that one more chance?
Why can't we give love give love give love?
Give love give love give love give love give love give love?
Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care
For the people on the edge of the night
And love dares you to change our way
Of caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
this is ourselves

Under Pressure
Under Pressure
Pressure
20th-Jun-2007 07:04 pm(no subject)
I need to control my temper. I got so angry that I pretty much was pissy to two friends instead of to the people I should have been. It wasn't their faults. I feel really bad because I haven't heard from one and I'm afraid I pissed him off maybe. Here's to hoping.


My head is splitting and I can't have my phone on mobile at the moment. I don't know what caused it but I have been in pain since I had lunch and every so often I get really dizzy. It really sucks because I can't afford to be sick. But at the same time I wouldn't mind the day off.
20th-Jun-2007 07:02 am(no subject)
Went shopping yesterday.. again. I'm locking up my debit card so I stop spending my money I need for school. Damn I need to save it up. I plan to stop by Target tonight though and pick up some dvd's though that I love. Some good 90's cartoon box sets. Alright.


Shopped at Torrids for some cute girly clothing. I really need to start dressing nicer and cuter. I need that refreshing change. Of course at work I'm going to continue wearing t-shirts and the baggy stuff but on weekends and days out with friends, tighter clothing. Torrids is unfortunately the only place that fits at the moment because I don't have a specific size that fits. The store that I usually try to find cute clothing, I have some clothing from, is starting to make their stuff really long and really baggy even in my size, so I sort of have given up getting shirts from them. Don't get me wrong, going to still wear t-shirts, just ones that are more fitted on moi.


Pretty much been working. Been seeing some movies, not many. A lot more come out this weekend. We're getting our carpets cleaned, o joy. Not that fun. That day will be known as get friends and see movies. My parents want to go to the drive in too that night since the carpets have to dry, so I'll see what movies I see. I'm hoping the drive in will have Ratatouille and Evan Almighty or Ratatouille and Fantastic Four and whichever one it doesn't have I'll see that day with a friend or something.

Energy bars and I have become friends. It's pretty much what I eat for food at work. Trying to not eat that much, still... like at school. It's going okay. I need to be on my feet more at work but I keep having tomake new charts which means I sit in a chair for eight hours and make damn charts. This isn't good.

Didn't have internet for four days. Sort of good sort of bad. It was pretty much like every weekend where I sort of heard from people and went on with my daily routine. Getting used to summer and getting used to the silence thing. Love to hear from people, but people are pretty busy.

Hmm anything else before shower time...

I'm taming my mane of hair so it is silkier, and not so... simba-like. Leave in conditioner is amazing. Except when you put too much in, then it's annoying at work. But if you don't, it's amazing. Not only does it de-poof, it makes my hair softer. I like softer hair.

Tried to start writing a story... and failed. There is a reason I'm not an English major.

I'm been drawing a lot. I can't get the drawings up at the moment because I don't have room to hook in my scanner. I'll probably have to wait when school starts to scan the suckers in. Also they are marker colored because it's quicker and for many of the drawings, they are dress designs too, so I wanted a softer look in my picture. Same with using brown ink to outline. Gives many of my drawings a soft look. I can't use my tablet because there isn't any room and I have no pictures to scan at the moment. Maybe I should bring my scanner with me to school... I don't think it'll fit anywhere.

Oi, that better not have been thunder I just heard. I need to take that darn shower... and drive to work. I need gas too... better remember that.
12th-Jun-2007 11:04 pm - All That I Got by The Used
scarlet
I don't think these are on here. I love this song ever since the first time I saw the music video while back. The music video reminded me of a lighter version of something Malice Mizer would do. And the song was really really good. It is one of the few songs that I love the live version ten times more than the recorded. I probably listened to this song equivalent to an hour of my work day and then sang to it on the way home.

So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, I...
I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can't laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, I...

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Unharmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squalled so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream, so fuck me
I..

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah all that I've got
11th-Jun-2007 08:55 pm - Time after Time by Quietdrive
So I love the original time after time by Cyndi but Quietdrive brings a nice guy remix cover to the table. I really love the lryics and I just love these guys voices. I really recommend it.

Lying in my bed
I hear the clock tick
And think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion is nothing new
Flashback
Warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after time

Sometimes
You picture me
I’m walking
Too far ahead
You’re calling
To me
I can’t hear
What you’ve said

Then you say
Go slow
I fall behind
The second hand
Unwinds

If you’re lost
You can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall
I will catch you
I’ll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

After
My picture fades
And darkness
Has turned to grey
Watching
Through windows
You’re wondering
If I’m okay

Secrets
Stolen
From deep inside
The drum beats
Out of time

If you’re lost
You can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall
I will catch you
I’ll be waiting
If you fall
I will catch you
I’ll always be waiting
Time after time
If you fall
I will catch you
I’ll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
7th-Jun-2007 08:31 am(no subject)
For some reason I haven't been remmembering whole dreams but just snippits. And the only part of the snippits I'm remmembering is that in each dream I'm looking at Nintendo Wii prices. And they are always different. No I'm not buying a Wii. I know plenty of people who have them. I probably wouldn't use it that much anyway if you know my gaming track record, it isn't high.

I'm going to work again. Next week I'm going to try to just do four day work weeks. The next few paychecks are going towards school stuff. I need money next semester to buy books and crap. Also for socialising. I have a list of stuff I want to buy before I go back though.

External Hard Drive -this weekend I'm going to pick this up
History of the World Part 1 DVD- delicious movie
The Producers DVD- the newer one that is more musically
National Treasure DVD- I couldn't find this when I wanted it for my birthday so now I'm on a hunt for it
Monty Python's The Meaning of Life- It is very funny and I must share it with the Bethany world
Nerima Daikon Brothers DVD 1- Probably the only anime I may buy over the summer. My liking towards anime has sort of gone down.
Le Chevalier D'Eon- I really like this series so I'm not sure if I will buy DVD or not
Nintendo Ds Lite- This is a dilemna. I really like my DS but it is pretty scratched and that includes the screen. It is the Ice Blue color so I don't want to part with it because I love that color and to get the Ice Blue DS Lite, I would have to use importing and it costs a lot more. So I don't know what color to pick.


I also have a few games and some shirts on the list. I make lists, I'm wierd like that...
6th-Jun-2007 12:28 am - Sally's Song
scarlet
I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?
no, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one


I borrowed from the library the newer 2 disc release of the Nightmare Before Christmas soundtrack and this is one of the covers by Fiona Apple. I will admit I was never a huge fan of Nightmare but I was too young when it came out to really get hooked in it. By the time I was allowed to see it by my parents standards, it was out of date really. I really like the music though. I love Danny Elfman. I love these lyrics a lot. Even though a lot of people don't like it, I love Fiona Apple's version. I really love these lyrics though.
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